Perspective - "Where the Hell Are You?"

It was always so hard to stay crabby because even when Big Garland was in a bad mood, he still loved me so hard. Looking back, that is the kind of love that I hope I gave him in return and the kind of love I hope I am able to share with other people. Today some things were put into perspective for me. Not everyone is going to love me the same. I know the saying about people and situations (some people come into our life as a blessing and some for a lesson) and I feel like both are necessary and play a huge role in our lives. I guess you could say that Jerry was both, my biggest blessing and my hardest lesson. Moving forward I hope I am a blessing to others and I also hope that those people in my life that don’t genuinely care for me are removed. Maybe I am being silly, but I don’t think I need to learn any more lessons right now.

August 20th, 2016

Jerry: hey sexy girl are you free tonight

Me: Maybe!! Are you in a better mood?

Jerry: maybe???? What the hell does that mean????

Me: It means maybe. It means if you are crabby then I have plans and if you aren’t crabby then I don’t have plans. So, are you crabby or not?

Jerry: baby I had to wash my honda and we didn’t get home till late and I was frustrated that you knew I had stuff to do and I wanted to make sure you had breakfast before I had to leave.

Me: are you crabby or not

Jerry: Im still a little crabby. Are the kids coming home tonight?

Me: I am not sure I will have to ask, but I think they were staying the night. I will have plans tonight even if you are a little crabby

Jerry: I would be in a better mood if you come down here and see me while I finish washing the honda

Me: So all I have to do is show up and you will be happy again? That makes no sense because I am the reason you were crabby LOL

Jerry: get ready and come down here and I will take you somewhere nice to eat

Me: I don’t want to eat in Somerset so can we go somewhere else?

Jerry: I don’t care baby you just tell me where to go

Me: I will get ready right now and I have to go find Lilli because she ran out of the door when I came back inside.

Jerry: Ok baby text me when you are done I love you

Me: I will. I love you so much.

Jerry: muahhh

*** I like to think I am fast in the shower but in all reality, I am not. It took me over an hour to get ready and text Big Garland back. The following texts are from him while he was waiting! LOL***

Jerry: Babe

Jerry: did you drown

Jerry: did that hole in the shower swallow you

Jerry: I am gonna go eat with out you

Jerry: are you already waiting on me at the restaurant?

Jerry: what restaurant was it baby and I’ll come meet you there

Jerry: did I lose you sugar lips

Me: OMG, I am ready. I love you so much. I can’t stop laughing.

Jerry: who is this

Me: youre so stupid

Jerry: oh you really got the wrong number now

Me: I will see you in a minute. I love you.

**24 minutes later**

Jerry: baby im here

Me: I have called you twice. Where are you?

Jerry: The driveway dummy. Where the hell are you?

Me: Answer your PHONE!!!!!!!

Jerry: I cant I am on the phone with Morgan about the wedding

Me: tell her I love her so much and what driveway are you in? I can’t find you.

Jerry: baby we only have one damn driveway. Are you at the neighbors house or something

Me: you have got to be kidding me. I drove to the f***ing farm. I told you I was gonna get ready and come there. I am gonna kill you as soon as I see you.

Jerry: your so stupid

Me: I am NOT the one that is stupid.

Jerry: stay put baby I am on my way.

Me: I am laughing so hard I am going to have to go pee in the bushes. Are we going to leave my car at the farm?

Jerry: yes and I got your things from the house

Me: got what things?

Jerry: you will see

Me: I love you so much

Jerry: I love you baby I am on my way

That night me and Big Garland went to Bowling Green and stayed the night. I can’t remember where we had dinner, the hotel we stayed in, what time we went to bed, or if we even went to bed. I do remember the way it felt when he touched my skin, kissed my mouth, held me with his arms (my gawd, I miss those arms), and made me feel like I was the only girl in the whole world. ❤️